嚴謹

You know how strict your parents were/are if you can pretend and look sober when drunk af. I met a lot of people and friends that are geniuses when it comes to lying to their parents, but tbf is because they were too strict with em. I am not gonna say that I have never lied to my parents because that’s a lie, everybody has, but I gotta say that I always try to avoid lying to them just because and I was always criticized by the fact that I am a pretty bad liar, so bad that when I was a teenager I used to have this stupid laugh when I lied (pretty stupid I know) .

The other day we were talking to these friends and for some reason we ended up talking about showering habits and how europeans, latinos and taiwanese people shower, and I gotta say that i am not gonna get into detail, because I don’t wanna offend I will just talk about my habits, I personally shower twice per day, in the morning because I don’t want to smell like bed the whole day and disrespecting the people that you are going to meet during the day ( I mean, now women can wear make up and look like they just shower, but trust me even the hair smells like bed, not to mention that even during the sleep you do realize that you sweat?)

Yeaaaaahh!!!

Not that I wanna know what are your hygiene habits, but have you ever been to a concert? or been inside a bus without aircon in a summer day that is 40 degrees outside, 50 inside because you gotta close the windows otherwise you will get wet? or in any MRT during summer time? those are fun hah！！！

So look me in the eyes
Tell me what you see
Perfect paradise
Tearing at the seams
I wish I could escape
I don’t wanna fake it
Wish I could erase it
Make your heart believeBut I’m a bad liar, bad liar

恩情

Who is one stranger that you will never forget? So, now that I think about it, my life has been quite exciting since I can remember.

I thought about writing this for a while, because I don’t wanna sound like I am a saint or the best person in the world, because I am not, but then I thought that if this makes you wanna help, well that is all we need in this world. To be kind and generous to others without doubt.

The first time that I went overseas by myself I was 19 yo, all by myself figuring out life and how to be an adult. On my way back I had to make a stop in Venezuela and it happened to be that the flight got cancelled (you prob know how things get when your flight gets cancel or delayed) there was a lot of people everywhere complaining, etc. This was the 1st time something like that happened to me and I had no idea what the next step had to be. So I sat down to wait for the people to calm down and after a while of arguments and discussions everywhere I saw this middle age lady with a hijab with a baby crying non stop and so was her baby, so it was a very heartbreaking situation, (honestly I dont remember if we talked in english or spanish) but I went to see if I could help with the at least with baby (and now that I think about it, that is kinda crazy shit to do).

So I went over and asked if she was alright, and then you have me there helping her in all possible ways. I helped her that night and when I came back for my surprise the airport did not give a shit and she stayed there with her baby in the cold aircon all night, of course the baby kept crying cuz he was hungry, so when I got in I saw her and we were already friends. We had breakfast that I got charged for an euro the same as if it was the venezuelan currency (a completely rip off), anyways, the thing is that I knew that I was never gonna meet her again even if we were in the same country, but I felt awesome to help her and her baby. I did not know how all this will help me at all but it helped my soul.

You ALWAYS gotta find a way to help people that cannot pay you back, even tho there is a lot of people out there that think that making this would not change anything and that life is just not fair, but I am certain that in some way before you die all you did good will come back to you.

And now it follows me every day

Kindness,
So many people passed me by
But you warmed me to my core
And you left me wanting moreOh I, got a feeling this will shake me down
Oh, I’m kind of hoping this will turn me round
Oh I, got a feeling that however small
Oh, I’m kind of hoping this will reach my soul

沒救

aren’t kindles an awesome invention? You can read all the books you want without carrying a bunch of books ate the same time.

play with me!

pretty straightforward

生病

The other day I was going through my stuff and found this draw that I made:

then I was thinking, when did I draw this and why if I look at the doodle itself, makes me feel so sad? (tbf is a pretty sad doodle) and honestly, dun remember what the number and boxes are (kinda looks like an excel table.

Then I got me; this was at the beginning of this year and I was sick, I got sick at the end of the 2020 and kept going till around april of this year (I was sick mentally, emotionally and of course physically) and I have to say that even if covid did not affect your body i let it affect my mind with everything that happened. I tried to be the stronger and keep my life going as usual, but honestly was not and you can clearly see it there. I was taught that if you are sick you still have responsibilities and you gotta finish them (I know some ppl that if they are feeling with a cold they just dun go to work/school, etc). I cannot give me that luxury, so if I get forced to do it (take a break) I feel guilty! A lot of stuff happened IN my life and i am still dealing with it and I think that is part of the change that I went thru and I am still dealing with. Like I had said before, mental health is very underrated, yet one of the most important stage of your life.

pretty interesting documentary, i think that there’s also a book about her story

Going back to the video of this Doris the thief, she said that the only regret that she has is getting caught, and she never use firearms, etc…

可樂

have you tried to explain your tattoos before or have you ask about the meaning of a tattoo? YOU prob have noticed that everybody has different meaning for their tattoos, but to be fair every time you try to explain the tattoos it just sounds silly to everyone.

I know that some people if they wanna get a tattoo they must find a “meaning” and of course I am not saying that tattoos without meaning are alright, but dun give me that reason to get a tattoo.

The other day I asked this girl that had some tattoos and it looked interesting and then she tried to explain it and there was not really an explanation, so it kinda seemed that she made up her “meaning” cuz it was way too deep. Just say that you liked it and that is it, cuz why not?
I mean, tattoos are your own decision and you get them to adorn your body.

Always is nice to see this interviews in hot ones and… YES you deffo gotta finish the meat off the bones

I asked for pancakes, not for huge ass pancakes (did not finish em right away but took em home) heh

jb looks particularly good in this video

I get drunk, wake up, I'm wasted still
I realize the time that I wasted here
I feel like you can't feel the way I feel
Oh, I'll be fucked up if you can't be right here

抱怨

August 24th, 2021 6kg 48cm was born my very first nephew! cannot fit in my body as…. i am a brand new aunt. I cannot believe it, I cant wait to meet him and smell the baby smell on his tiny body.

Speaking of babies, do you know when to know you are actually old? when your friends tell you they are pregnant and you are happy and congratulate them, instead of being worried about it. Ha! so are you old yet?

these two are a thing, for sure

Whut!!!!?

Do I sit this one out and wait for the next life?
Am I too cold? Am I not nice?
Might not be quite yet healed or ready

不年輕

What is with the hype for shoes everywhere?
Seriously, since probably 5 years ago that hype has been going stronger over the years, and do you know what is the worst part of it? That during quarantine the hype for sneakers increased significantly.

I am not gonna say that I dont like shoes, because I do, but…. seriously, this new wave that is increasing is probably too much! and speaking of that, what is gonna happen in 10 years? cuz we are full of “influencers” “only fans” and all this stuff paying you a stupid amount of money for doing nothing that actually contributes to the society. A lot of people are leaving their exhausting jobs to become a thing that, wears you less and pays you way more than what you won in 5 years working your ass off! Kinda worrying, to me!! Maybe for you this is fine and the next generation will be just fine. Ur where the doctors are gonna be, maybe it all depends on how you were raced and your values or maybe how deep on your mortgage are you!

Just while writing all this makes me feel old lmao, cuz I sound like the grannies saying “this generation just have no boundaries) 🤷🏿‍♀️

This used to be my precious dog, his name was Krypton and we had him for like 13 years

Of all that hardcore dance that has gotten to be
A little bit out of control it’s cool to dance
But what about the groove that soothes that moves romance

禱告

Got the best visit this year! My fav ppl visited and it’s been too long. Specially cuz since COVID everything just feels longer, more stressful.

So my parents visit us and it was so good for my heart, I got to reconnect with my dad and understand him better. I did not mention my mom because we have a friendship and we are always in constant contact, but since my dad is always busy we never have a change to really talk about anything besides work (all my life has been like that, I worked with him since I was 10) and what better that, spending the days with them without them worrying about work as much.

But what I have been told a lot this year is that, live goes on. and I mean, yeah, that is a fact, but a little difficult for me to understand. We had a blast, that is for sure!

Feeling a little nostalgic since they left I guess.. but mostly missing the days when I was a kid and my highest fear was to wake up late and get late to school (I know, I was a little nerd back then)

Sometimes I wish that I could see you one more day
One more rainy day
I’m a wreck without you here

可怖

I know, its been a while! I get it, still, thank you for coming back every time. I guess I am not gonna make any promises, just try to write whenever I can, because I still enjoy doing it! I don’t know when will I stop or if I even will stop.

Anyways, back to the writing… its been a very busy couple of weeks and I got asked why do i keep writing to women, exes, heart breaking. and the answer is simple… I have been there in all aspects and honestly, I wish I didn’t suffer that much if I didn’t spend that much time thinking about it.

I just wish people understand that there are 7.6 Billion people on earth:
in Taiwan 23.603.000
in Panama 4.279.000
in USA 328.461.000
and there’s a high probability that if you give a chance to anybody that likes you or you kinda like they will be a match for you. I mean, I have been thru breakups (like everyone else) and I gotta say that the breakup that was the must difficult for me was with my very 1st boyfriend (he broke up with me, just to be with a girl that was older than me or even older than him) and in my mind back then I could not understand how is there somebody that does not want to be with me. It took me abt 6 months to get over him and a lot of effort from my mom (but I gotta say that she was relieved that we were not together)
Back then I was 16 yo and very young for an adult relationship, there were a lot of stuff that I wish I understood better, like… there is a lot of people that you are gonna meet in the future. I closed my heart after that for like two or almos three years, then I tried again and guess what? I got hurt AGAIN, this love thing is just an endless back and forth thing.

Love is for everybody, in any kind of way you see them, because we all need love. Just give yourself a chance AGAIN. Oh and let me clarify, not with your toxic ex, or somebody that only used you, or even worst, with somebody with a partner already.

pretty classic song… but do you still believe in love after love?

Blue skies, colors and smells everywhere

防呆

We are all human beings and we always make mistakes (some people more than others or maybe in different ways) but it just kind of avoidable. Some people make mistakes because they are careless or because they are completely clueless.

ALL my life, my dad will seat me on the table or go to my room to have conversations with me about how to prevent mistakes in every aspect of my life. If you don’t know i am the oldest of three, so I guess that as I was growing my dad got more and more worried (but to be fair, I think that they did a pretty decent job with me ha!) He will call me and write on stuff, saying that there are ways to avoid mistake and is to think smart.. whats dat? think ahead of what can become a mistake and how to avoid it (So all my life I engraved this in my head) sometimes, life takes you down to places that you are kind of comfortable and think it is okay if you relax a bit…. Well, pretty bad mistake!

Do not get comfortable, I repeat once again DO NOT GET COMFORTABLE! because this is the easier way to make mistakes.

Let him know that you know best
‘cuz after all, you do know best

He looks grumpy but he’s A very good boi🥺